Horrible day. Brought to you by fathers who don't understand anything and instead of just supporting you they just act like jerks and complain. Made better by Merwan Rim's music.

Ok, so I'm stage manager for the school play as always. We are doing Of Mice and Men. The biggest difference between a company play and a school play is how much time we get to prepare. If we got 6 months to prepare and didn't have to plan set building around other events that require the auditorium, you better believe we would have perfect plays. But we get like 2 months and we have to make sure that before we start building the set they don't need the stage for choir or band concerts. The auditorium isn't for the theater department only. I really wish it was. But we have to share.
So, because I'm at my dad's this week I've been getting rides home from rehearsals from my step mom and then today we had a Saturday rehearsal so my dad dropped me off while they were on their way to Costco. Rehearsals were at 11. He dropped me off at 10:30. Wouldn't be a problem except then my drama coach (aka the director) sent out a text saying it was moved to 11:30 because he was having car troubles. So I was pissed at my dad already for being a jerk on the way over and saying things like "I don't understand why you guys have to practice as much as sports teams" "Is the set actually going to be done this time"* "If they have their lines down they shouldn't have to practice so much" "Is this going to be the last rehearsal before the play starts?"** And so yeah, needless to say I was already pissed off when I got there. Then I had my mom pick me up so I could cool off and we did a bit of shopping around. I've decided that from now on, when there's a school play happening, I'm staying with her the week before AND week of. I don't care what my dad feels. He just pisses me off and stresses me out.

So where does Merwan Rim fit into all of this? Well, I logged into twitter and saw that he had been doing some chatting with people and so then I remembered some lyrics to one of his songs. It's a song in English and it's one of those songs that every girl wishes some guy would say those things to her ("If I gave you everything and all the stars, would you feel alright? If I brought you wings to fly up to the sky, would you still be down?" Is that sweet or not?). And then I remembered THIS song that is from now on my New Years Eve/Bad day song.

I couldn't find a good English translation, so you'll just have to deal with only understanding the English parts. But that's ok because those are the parts that make this my feel good song. 

Tu sais, que je
Suis arrivé au bout
Les yeux ferléq je ne tiens plus debout
Je sais, tu sais
J'ai bien failli tomber
Ils ont voulu
Me voir abandonner

Hold on you're fine
When they cut you to size
Then you turn round ans smile just a little
Say Happy New year
Coz this is the end
Of all that was broken
Let go of you fears

Say Happy New year
Un nouveau départ, Un nouveau défi
j'ai vraiment tout donné, vraiment tout donné
J'oublie le passé enfin je respire
C'est un nouveau jour

Get up get up take a second to look
Take a third take a fourth
And you'll see that you're good
Enough enough it doesn't matter at all
When you feel like you're surrounded coz you
Stood too tall

Je sens, mon coeur
Qui se bat
Et je regarde au loin vers le soleil
Sau Happy New Year
Coz this is the end
Of all that was broken
That you needed to mend
Let go of you fears

Say Happy New Year
Un nouveau départ, Un nouveau défi
J'ai vraiment tout donné, vraiment tout donné
J'oublie le passé je respire
C'est un nouveau jour

Je n'ai plus peur des silences
Des coups durs, des absences
Every heart is open tonight

So happy New Year
Coz this is the end
Fin de l'histoire, je réalise
Je sais que demain, je sais que demain
Est un nouveau départ, Aaaah
C'est un nouveau jour, une nouvelle vie
J'ai vraiment tout donné, vraiment tout donné
Je sais que demain, est un nouveau jour






*The last play we did, we had Drama Competition and the variety show right before the play and so we couldn't build the set pretty much until the week of. But we DID get it done on opening night and the play turned out really well. It's just my dad is too thick-skulled to understand that it wasn't entirely our coach's fault that we didn't have it done sooner.

**Seriously?!?! That question just pissed me off. It's not like people don't have to work to get good. And it's not like we just go and learn the lines and then the blocking and whatever else comes naturally. Or that we can go over it once and remember every little detail. We put just as much, if not more, work into our plays as the sports teams put into making themselves good.

*Pulling hair out, throwing a fit, sharpening a knife while glaring at a picture of a particular person who shall be left unnamed* I'm mad. Can't you tell?

So. Today started out GREAT. Last night I exercised and stretched before bed and went to bed early. I woke up this morning and felt better than usual. School day was going fine and then BAM. Horrible day.
What happened, you ask? Oh, nothing much. I just found out that I REALLY can't trust one of my friends.

Ok, so drama competition is next Saturday. I've been fully memorized, ready to get blocking done and just polish things up. My "partner," on the other hand, is not. We've had this script for AT LEAST a month. If not two. My partner's excuse is that she "get's nervous in front of people" or "blanks out." I understand both of those. But if that's the case then why is it that she can't get through ONE run through when it's just the two of us with no one watching? Oh, that's right, because she's NOT MEMORIZED.
And as if that wasn't stressful enough, today our teacher told us that we have 2 too many groups in our category. SO NEXT CLASS all of the groups in that category are going to get up and perform our pieces in front of the class and he will pick the 4 groups that will go to competition. Guess who it's not going to be. If you guessed "you and your partner" you would be correct.

But it doesn't stop there, oh no. Now I have to find a 5-8 minute monologue and have it ready to go by next Saturday. Isn't that just lovely? Thankfully I've found one. Now I just have to start memorizing it.





ACT TWO

So I don't know about the rest of you, but when I ask a question such as "about how far is it to _________?" I just want a generalization. I DON'T CARE HOW I'M GETTING THERE. I don't care if I'm in a car, on a bus or on freaking roller blades. I DON'T CARE ABOUT TRAFFIC. It doesn't matter if the rest of the world is dead, or if they're all going to the same place I am. So when I ask such a question you should answer with "about _______ minutes/hours/days/weeks/etc." and then just SHUT UP. Don't say "but we'll be on a bus so it might be longer." Don't say "but there might be some traffic." And DO NOT get all pissy with me when I tell you "I don't care about that stuff. All I want is a general distance." I don't care about what you were "just say'n" or "just letting you know." All I want is a freaking generalization. Is that so hard? You seem to do everything else half way, why does something this simple need such a huge explanation?
And when I tell you that I don't care about all of that other stuff, don't continue to argue that you were "just say'n." I don't give a crap. Get it? Just shut up and I'll stop having to tell you that I don't care about all of the variables. Faster you shut up about it, the faster I do.

Oh, and the biggest pet peeve of mine when it comes to situations like this? Saying "OKAY! GOSH!" Because all that does is piss me off.

Hit list.

There are a few things currently on my hit list.
1. My computer mouse. It's dying. It's messing everything up.
2. AP Biology classes. They suck.
3. Youtube. It keeps freezing.
4. Facebook. When I type I don't want to see |  || | |   |
5. The person who invented daylight savings. Screw you.

Double Standards for Today's Teens

So tonight I went out with one of my bestest friends and on our way home we were discussing how everyone has double standards for teens today. Especially girls. We have to dress a certain way, we have to act a certain way, and yet everyone expects the exact opposite of us.

I'm the type of girl who likes to wear her hair back and not worry about makeup. But in today's society, this isn't "normal." Girls always wear makeup and always have their hair absolutely perfect. And who is it for? Everybody else. What does everybody else think of those girls? What a fake. There's no denying it. If you don't conform visually, people don't think you are normal. But if you do, you are suddenly a fake slut.

The way we are told to act is to not have sex, not take drugs, and don't date around. But if the average teen girl tells someone "I've never had sex" she is met with eye rolls from people of all ages. My friend has a prescription for an acne treatment, but because one of the side effects is major birth defects she is being told to take birth control. When she told her doctor that she wasn't sexually active the doctor just rolled their eyes at her. And as her friend, I would know if she was sexually active. And trust me, she isn't.
We, as teens, are told not to take drugs because of the harmful effects, yada, yada, yada. But of course a lot of teens do. So unfortunately for those of us who don't, adults never believe us when we tell them we have never taken any type of drug, or had any alcohol. Again, we get the eye roll.
We all know girls at school who date around are known as sluts and whores. And there are a lot of us that don't date in high school simply because of the lack of nice guys. But tell another teen that and they instantly think we're lying. Date ONE guy and you are all of a sudden a slut. So which is it? Date or don't date. Personally, I'm not going to just date any guy. I have standards.

So while we are being told to be one thing, we are expected to be the exact opposite. Yes a lot of teens act up, but there are still those of us who don't. And because of the reckless image created by what people see on tv and in the news, teens who do what they are told are always doubted.

So listen up all of you, I don't care if you are a parent, grandparent, doctor, teen, whatever. Not ALL teens are the same. Give us the same benefit of a doubt that you give a five year old. Until you find out who we really are, who are you to judge?

And a special note for teens out there who are confused by all of the conflicting messages:
BE YOURSELF. Love who you are and surround yourself with people who love you for who you are. Don't let double standards get in your way.

 

I do not claim rights to this video. I just find it inspiring.